Chosen

Chosen

Verse 1

I've never seen them cry

I don't know why

I've never heard them yell

As far as I can tell

Expression of inwardness was concealed

Feelings were never revealed

Functionally impaired

Conversationally scared

Parental reluctance was evident

There was no interest between father and son

Ingrainment in ways of life was generational 

Comprehension of adult matters was non-existant

Verse 2

I hated being at the school

So he made me feel privileged

I follow him down a long corridor

Enter the room

Lay on an unmade bed

He tells me to remove my clothing

I oblige

He presses his lips against mine

The smell of alcohol is strong

He begins to pleasure himself once he's naked

Tells me what we're doing is sacred

When I see him explode

I become disgusted

Verse 3

I develop confused priorities

Skillfully, he had broken me

I now must pick myself up

This ghastly cycle is never-ending

I try to suppress the experience of my truncated childhood

Staying busy means I can disengage

Ultimately, this feeling never goes away

I learned secrecy and dishonesty

Now I don't know what will become of me

Chorus

You realize you are chosen after the fact

You are singled out at first sight

Grooming begins in daylight

But you cross an invisible line

In the dead of night

You don't question unspeakable activities

Being compliant is how you react

A significant amount of confusion is generated

Nothing is as simple as it used to be

Written by B. (Monday, May 5, 2014)

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